I count on one thing
The same God that never fails
Will not fail me now
You won't fail me now
In the waiting
The same God who's never late
Is working all things out
You're working all things out
Yes I will, lift You high in the lowest valley
Yes I will, bless Your name
Oh, yes I will, sing for joy when my heart is heavy
All my days, oh yes I will
-Yes I Will- Vertical Worship
This song just resonates with me every time I hear it. You see, throughout our entire fertility and adoption journey- I clung to this song. I clung to the lyrics because it talks about how God will never fail us. No matter what we are going through, no matter where we are in life, He will always be there to pick us up and dust us off.
One month ago, our whole lives changed. One month ago, we met a sweet sweet boy that instantly stole our entire heart and changed everything. You see- Cason Lane was born on 10/21/19 but we didn’t get to meet him until 10/26. (I know many of you are wondering why?… however, in order to preserve our little guys story- I’m not going to get into all of that.) The first 5 days after Cason was born were some of the most challenging days we have had in this entire process… we wondered and prayed if he would really be ours, if he was safe, if he was scared, if he was OK, if he had people caring for him… and so so much more…. To know that the sweet baby you had prepared for and already loved, may not actually be coming home with you… was gut wrenching….
But God protected Cason
But God protected us
But God put things in motion
But God provided finances
But God provided family to show up at a moment’s notice
But God gave Cason the best medical care he could have
But our God did this…
That is the one thing I want to make sure people know…. Cason Lane…. is a product of our God… no one or nothing else but Him could have gotten he nor us here!
The fact that God did fulfill his promise to me. He granted the desires of MY heart. He completed our family. He chose us to be this sweet boy’s parents…. Is something that I need not ever forget. You see- over the past month, I have gotten caught up in the everyday life of a newborn; making sure he feels safe, fed, not over stimulated, getting all the love and devotion that he deserves… and I have forgotten to really give credit and glory to who REALLY deserves it.
Yesterday hearing this song in church, made me just pause and think about who deserves the glory for this sweet boy. It made me remember that I need to be more purposeful about praising Jesus for this blessing.
You see, it’s one thing to beg God for something in your life…. but it’s a totally different thing to CONTINUE to praise Him even after He gives you the desires of your heart!
The past few weeks have really been life changing for us. The one thing we have been waiting on… the one thing that we have put all of our time and energy in over the last 8 years came to fruition. And I’ll be 100% honest…. I let the high of that get to me. I let the high of that pull me away from remembering how we got here in the first place.
Yesterday as I sang this song, holding our son- it had such a different meaning to me. While, yes- God brought us out of our lowest valley… I need to remember to continue to bless his name. My Jesus deserves ALL the glory for bringing our sweet boy to us. During our waiting period, I frequently found myself asking “Why God?” …. and God kept telling me… “just you wait and see, I will make all things good. My promises will remain, and I will give you the desires of your heart.”…. and boy oh boy did He do just that… so….
YES I WILL, BLESS HIS NAME!
YES I WILL, SING FOR JOY!
ALL MY DAYS, YES I WILL!