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One Little Word

“New Year New You””….. its so cliché. Everyone says it, but do they really mean it? I have been guilty year after year after year of saying… THIS is the year of the new me! And what happens 2 days later….. bye bye new me… hello old habits! I have never been one to step on the band wagon of a “word of the year”. Where you pray and think on a word that you feel God has placed on your heart… and that word shapes how you live your life throughout the year. This year, I decided… what the heck?? Might as well try it. So, I thought…. And I prayed…. And the same word kept coming to my mind over and over. It was something I had struggled with throughout the past year, and felt God convicting me but didn’t want to do anything about it. My word for this year….

What does this mean exactly?

  • I want to be present with God
  • I want to be present with my family
  • I want to be present with my friends
  • I want to be present with my church

I want to be PRESENT. I don’t want to miss out on what God has in store for me because I am in la la land… or because I have 20,000 thoughts going through my mind…. or because I’m worried I might miss something on social media. Becoming a mom changes lots of things, and I know that as well may sound cliché…. But it is SO true. It has made me realize how PRESENT I want to be with my child. How I don’t want to miss a thing because these moments go by SO fast. With aging grandparents, parents, and just the world in general… I don’t want to miss the moments that could be where God has placed me. I don’t want to be glued to my phone as a defense mechanism for anxiety. I don’t want to be concerned about social media, and what I might miss out…. So this year….. I’m taking a stand for myself and for my family. I am listening to what God is telling me and I am going to be PRESENT in my day to day life. This may sound easy to some people, but for some reason it has been a struggle for me.

So what does this mean?

  • I’m going to spend less time on my phone, and more time in meaningful conversations making memories that will last a life time.
  • I’m going to move my facebook icon to the back of my phone, not right in the fore front.
  • I’m going to make a conscious effort to listen to conversations instead of thinking about what I may be missing somewhere else
  • I’m going spend every morning before my baby gets up with God- listening to his promises for me and my life.

Throughout our adoption, I became connected to social media and electronics in general. During the whole process they tell you to ALWAYS keep your phone with you and be available 24/7. So… that’s what we were, and it became a way of life. If I didn’t have my phone with me… I would panic! What if they called? What if they needed us? What if we didn’t answer and they called a different family? We started our adoption page on facebook, and I felt like it was my “duty” to keep people informed. After all, people were helping us bring our baby home… that is the LEAST I could do for them! And I don’t regret that…. I am so eternally grateful for everyone who has supported us and helped us get through this time in our life. But now… I’m just going to take a step back and focus on what’s really important in my life right now… and that is Jesus and my new family!

For years, I have used my phone as a defense mechanism. When I got into a conversation I didn’t feel comfortable in, I would get my phone out and just scroll through facebook. I wasn’t really looking at anything… it was just something I could do with my mind so I didn’t have to be involved in the thing that was making me uncomfortable. Anytime I got anxious, I would do the same thing! You see… this is not what God wants of me. This was making electronics and social media an idol before God, and that has just hit me hard over the past few weeks. I don’t want anything to stand between me and God, because if it does… then I am giving it more power over my life than God… and what am I without God’s power and direction over my life?

SO….. I’m not going with “New Year New Me”…. this year….. I’m going to be PRESENT in everything I do.

Lets keep the conversation going! You know what they same about “new years resolutions”- they fizzle out! Lets not let this year be the year that we let our goals fizzle out. How can I support and pray for you to achieve your goals?!

What is your”one little word” of the year?

How do you plan on accomplishing it?

Why did it stick out to you?

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